Tuesday, May 31, 2005

muddle

You know, when you circle soft-ball parking lots several times in search of reflection, all you get is strange looks.

We are far enough into this season now that the grass has grown/has been cut, the first cohort of dandelions is done, and office-league sports have started. Ultimate frisbee. Softball. Soccer.




Which is all well and good, I suppose, but according to the stats I've compiled over the month of my round-robin, first-robin-of-spring poetry club, I'm supposed to come up with three poems by midnight.



All photos La Barriere Park, Winnipeg, MB. May 31, 2005

And I'm not sure I've got three poems in me today.

Monday, May 30, 2005

Tit poem

For G...

She made my mother
write handle with care
across her breast
with the thick black
tongue
of a permanent marker
when she came to drive her
to the operation
that morning

She told the doctor
staring at the exclamation
marks that spread down
between her breasts
one healthy
one suspect
that she was single again
that she needed her tits
just right
now

The doctor nodded
and sent the nurses to tell her
to take all her
clothes off
as if she was on
a suspect First Date
where the man you thought
was healthy
tells you what he wants
and assumes
that you
can
give it
to him

She’d stowed her clothes
her two intact breasts
still in the cups
of her bra
in a locker on the ward
but when she woke up
on a different stretcher
in a different room
they’d escaped
their bonds
and were heaped
next to her
as they would have been
on her bedroom
floor
if she’d been alone

It took her a long time
to paw through her clothes
her bandaged breast
beating
but her underwear
didn’t shake out
of the long creased legs
of her pants
and when she told them
all the legs in the hall
all the charts and chimes
and calls from different rooms
different stretchers
a nurse slowed down
long enough
to say
maybe you didn’t wear
underwear

today
as if a woman
facing
6:30 am surgery
and a suspect
tit
might
go without

She stared the woman
down
it was brand new
hot pink underwear
she said
and sat back
as people scurried around the ward
saying
have you seen her
underwear

her underwear is missing
until an intern found them
puddled
on the bland floor

Later she says wanna
see my tit
and whips up her shirt
before I can say no
to show me a bandage
as big as a handkerchief loaned
out by a black and white man
to a crying woman
not knowing herself
how and where they cut
or if the doctor
took the time
to wash away
handle with care
before he set
the knife
to her

* * * * *

I wrote this poem as a part of A Poem A Day in May - specifically, it was Day 18.

G. has since forwarded it to her co-workers, friends, and even to her doctor. She also sat in the audience when I read it at McNally Robinson Booksellers and blushed.


Sunday, May 15, 2005

bog log

Over the last week, I've written a poem every day and walked three times in Assiniboine Forest, each time with a camera swinging from my neck or looped around my wrist.

I have never had to come up with so many subjects, so many objects for contemplation.



In many ways, I feel like I'm skirting the edges of a bog, both literally and figuratively.

Literally in that everywhere in the forest is wet, glittering with reflected light, everything green below with moss and green above with new leaves.

Figuratively in that I'm writing poems directly drawn from my own life in which details aren't obscured.


Of course, writing about identifiable individuals (i.e. individuals that might not be thrilled to be identified) is a daunting prospect. At what point does my need to contemplate an idea or a relationship supercede my subject's right to privacy?

Basically, is a good poem worth hurting a good person?


All photos: Assiniboine Forest, Winnipeg, MB. May 15, 2005.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

nettles

As an alternative to the photos I've been publishing here of late, I thought I'd post a review I wrote recently for the books section of the Winnipeg Free Press. The review is more bubble than squeak but at least it contains a minimum of babble...

A.

* * *

The Nettle Spinner
By Kathryn Kuitenbrouwer
Goose Lane Editions, 202 pages, $21.95

By Ariel Gordon

Writing sex scenes well is hard to do. Unless an author is vigilant, there is the risk that what is supposed to be sensual will be either overwrought or overly clinical. Both extremes produce snickers and heavy underlining in its readers.

But, as Toronto author Kathryn Kuitenbrouwer notes in her first novel The Nettle Spinner, there is no escaping writing about sex because “narrative is sexual. Everything is sexual.”

Fortunately for the reader, Kuitenbrouwer writes narrative – and sex – well.

That said, this is no easy-peasy romp; though it depicts a variety of consensual/sensual encounters there is also a rape in The Nettle Spinner that harkens back to Aritha Van Herk’s The Tent Peg (1981) with its depictions of female sexuality and power in what have traditionally been male preserves.

Unlike The Tent Peg or even Marian Engel’s similarly controversial Bear (1976), however, Kuitenbrouwer’s novel is unique in that the sexuality it depicts is neither transgressive (i.e. as a result of being unmasked as a woman in an all-male mining camp) nor fantastical (i.e. between a librarian and a bear).

Part of the sea-change in women’s writing about sex (and sexual violence) comes in the fact that writing about female desire is no longer controversial, as it was for Engel, Van Herk, and even Margaret Laurence when she published her Manawaka novels. Kuitenbrouwer is also writing in an age when the expression “women’s work” means more than housekeeping and childrearing, including everything from office work to the trades.

The Nettle Spinner, for instance, is set in a treeplanting camp in northern Ontario, where what you earn is based solely on how many conifers you can put in the ground. The main character, Alma, has already spent several summers planting when we meet her, enjoying both the high pay and the hard work of treeplanting. Unfortunately, she also has the misfortune of having caught the attention of Karl, a veteran treeplanter “who reeked of garlic and had the rheumy eyes of a drinker.”

Alma evades Karl long enough to enjoy a passionate affair with Willem, a Belgian logger, but soon after Willem leaves camp, Karl attacks her. The rape forces Alma to flee both her apartment in civilized southern Canada and the tent city of her fellow treeplanters for a shack further in the bush, where she has plenty of time to brood on both her advancing pregnancy and the similarities between her experiences and a beloved Flemish folk tale.

Though the story of Alma, Karl, and Willem does not completely parallel that of Renelde, Guilbert, and Burchard in the folk tale, Kuitenbrouwer teases out enough resonances between the two to make things interesting for readers. Both Alma and Renelde are weavers, for instance, and each woman’s story revolves around the spinning of a shroud out of stinging nettle.

That said, sometimes the resonances between the two feel contrived, especially compared to the passages where Kuitenbrouwer drops the “mythic pose” to describe the politics and practice of treeplanting, for instance, or Alma’s ambivalent relationships with her mother and her newborn son. These sections of The Nettle Spinner are visceral and nasty and positively hum.

In the end, despite these quibbles, The Nettle Spinner is immensely satisfying, both as an elaboration of the themes Kuitenbrouwer took up in Way Up, her earlier collection of short stories, and as a contribution to the tradition of sexy Canadian fiction written by women.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

twig

Another of today's pics...

moss

Spring in Assiniboine Forest, this year, means puddles full of moss and green growth rather than frog-song. We've already had a melt-bud-freeze-thaw cycle so hopefully the sunshine of today will stay put for a few days.


Assiniboine Forest, Winnipeg, MB. May 5, 2005.

I was looking forward to the balloon-rub chorus of bull frogs from the puddles and ditches of last year or even the millions of mushrooms of the year before but it seems I must satisfy myself with what there is, this year.


Wednesday, May 04, 2005

planted

Spent the day dipping into Brenda Schmidt's More Than Three Feet of Ice and writing a poem about the star-crossed love of a roofing contractor on a day-off fishing trip and an immature Humboldt squid.


Winnipeg, MB. May 4, 2005.

I think it's the least panic-stricken I've felt in months...

Monday, May 02, 2005

The first day in May

Was rocketing out the door, resenting the ice and snow on this first day of May, when I saw this and was compelled to stop, bags flapping at my sides, M waiting in the car more or less patiently...


Winnipeg, MB. May 1, 2005.

Over breakfast, safely ensconced against the ice and snow, I wrote a poem for May Day, a collorative project with four other poets.

My poem, like this day, is imperfect, full of typos and flagrant space/time continuum violations (poetry, like the space/time continuum, attempts to
define what is) (of course, what I mean by space/time continuum violations is that the verb tenses change willy-nilly, a product of writing and posting my poem at 11:30 pm when the deadline for posting and also revising that day's poem is midnight) but I am resisting the urge to fix it.

Besides, I don't have time to fret; it's already May 2nd, and I have another poem to write.